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I  binged this weekend, bad. I ate to the point of not being able to breathe more because my stomach was so full, and then I purged. I always make myself throw up after I binge, which is very unhealthy. I thought I had conquered this problem, but I haven’t after all. I’ve gotten better with handling my binge eating disorder and purging, though. Still, I want to stop doing this to myself.

I can’t sleep well anymore. I keep waking up before I get my needed 7-8 hours of sleep per night. I mean, it’s hard enough getting my body to fall asleep, but when I wake up in the middle of the night, I can never go back to sleep. It’s so frustrating because not only does it make me fatter (lack of sleep leads to more visceral fat) but it makes me hungry. My stomach starts grumbling, and it stresses me out because I can’t think of anything else but my body going into starvation mode and eating the muscles I’m working so hard to build. 

I just want to sleep.

Ingredients:

1 serv. of instant oatmeal (unsweetened, unflavored)

1 cup skim milk

1 egg

2 tsp brown sugar

A little bit of vanilla extract

1 tbsp peanut butter

Directions:

1. Mix oats, milk, 2 tsp brown sugar, and vanilla extract in a bowl.

2. Nuke mixture in microwave for 2 minutes. In a separate bowl, whisk the egg.

3. Once the oatmeal is ready, add the egg and stir immediately. Add peanut butter. Mix well.

4. Microwave for another minute.

5. Enjoy!